Friday, December 31, 2010
As the year draws to an end, I think back on the year it was. It was a year of triumphs and tragedies. A year filled with discoveries and new beginnings. My oldest son, got his 1st job. My 2nd son started highschool. My 3rd son showed me his spiritual side and my baby boy let us know just how smart and funny he really is. My husband and I had our ups and downs as all relationships do. But, we found a common ground. LOVE. We grew stronger with everyday and I know that only God could have brought us this far. I learned that it is not only important to have a life outside of my duties as wife and mother, but that by pursuing that life, I become a better wife and mother. We lost some elders and others that seemed to be taken away much too soon. I go into the New Year, not with resolutions. They never come to past. This year I plan to go forth with prayer that God will allow me to be what he created me to be. Whatever that might be. I pray that my purpose is revealed. I pray that this family he has blessed me with, stays intact. I pray that we are blessings to others as so many have been blessings to us. I leave 2010 feeling very grateful and very blessed. To those that read this. Thank You. May you have a very wonderful, safe and Happy New Year.
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010
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Tuesday, December 14, 2010
There are times when I understand why some animals in the wild eat their young. I believe it is to save their own lives or at least preserve their sanity. Now, I would never advocate or actually consider harming my children. However, there are days when I wonder exactly what cruel joke is being played on me by being their mother. The problem lies with my two oldest sons. They are 20 and 15 respectively. They drive me up the wall. One of them loses everything of value that he is given, but has every school assignment and notebook since the 5th grade. Since 7th grade, he has lost 5 calculators totaling $600.00. Add to that, mp3 players, countless hats and gloves and probably a few other things he hasn't told me about. I think the most frustrating thing is that it seems like he doesn't care. He takes a very nonchalant approach to the items he loses. Probably because he figures they will all be replaced. The latest thing he lost was a really nice hat that my husband just bought him. He lost it and never bothered to mention it. I just happened to ask him if he had his hat and he said yes. My mommy radar went off and I said, "you lost the hat didn't you?" I was faced with the blank "deer in the headlights"stare that I have seen so many times. I was so angry that I actually wanted to cry. Not sure why I reacted that way to the loss of a hat. I think it is because I have finally reached the breaking point. Now, on to my 20 year old. *sigh*. He is just in that, "grown without having your own" stage. I don't even have the strength to begin writing about him right now. He acts as if is a bachelor in a house of 6. Don't get me wrong, they are beautiful young men, but they just seem so clueless at times. I still have to tell them to wash their clothes, take out the garbage, wash the dishes, etc...I really fear for their future. At this rate, they better marry women who want grown children. I still have hope that one day they will wake up with responsibility and maturity. At this rate, the younger two will move out of the house before they do. I must admit I probably have something to do with the way that they are. I was very attentive and always there for them no matter what, cooking, cleaning, help with homework. I thought that this was what I was supposed to do. If only I had known, I would have spent much more time away from home allowing for them to fend for themselves. Maybe that would have taught them a lesson. Probably not. In fact from what I hear, the behavior of my oldest two sons seems to be an epidemic. There are scores of parents out there just like myself and my husband standing in the middle of a room scratching and shaking their heads wondering where it all went awry. Is there hope for us? I don't know. Right now, all we can do is wait for them to move out, have jobs, bills, homes and families of their own so we can sit back with sly grins on our faces...... if we survive that long.
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Wednesday, December 8, 2010
As much as I write about not liking the winter weather. Sometimes when it is cold outside, I just have to open the door or window and let the cold blast hit me in the face. It is so refreshing! The novelty quickly fades when I am stuck driving in it or when I almost break my tailbone slipping on it. I have always thought that I would love to live where it doesn't snow, but I am starting to believe that I a little snow isn't so bad. Although, the final verdict will be rendered AFTER I spend a winter away from cold and snow.
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Saturday, December 4, 2010
I was up until about 1 a.m. this morning. Not sure why. Sometimes it is just so quiet in the house at that time that I want to savor the silence. Anyway, I looked out the window and saw that the snow had begun to fall. I sighed a big sigh and knew that there was no chance for the "snowless" winter that I pray for every year. It's not that I don't like snow. It is very pretty on postcards. But up close, not so much. As I write this, the snow continues to fall and I can only imagine the shrieks of joy that will soon be emanating from my two youngest boys when they awake. As for me, I am going to seriously consider hibernation.
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Wednesday, December 1, 2010
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